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Friday, April 15, 2011
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Aching
hey guys I wish people here had some feelings for people who werent themself.. I wish they didnt think there was an alternative reason for you to tell them something...
I have been aching all over lately from this bed. I HATE it so much i want burn it and throw it out. I havent been feeling good these last couple days physically and i have been feeling like I want to throw up and collapse, but I also feel so weak Im having a challenging time even typing on the keyboard which is not the usual me T_T...
Alot of people think im faking that im feeling weak, ill, and in major pain, but i really am : /...
I have been aching all over lately from this bed. I HATE it so much i want burn it and throw it out. I havent been feeling good these last couple days physically and i have been feeling like I want to throw up and collapse, but I also feel so weak Im having a challenging time even typing on the keyboard which is not the usual me T_T...
Alot of people think im faking that im feeling weak, ill, and in major pain, but i really am : /...
Friday, April 18, 2008
Conflict a Necessity?
personally i dont like conflict, I believe its really stupid most of the time... It only makes a difference depending on the situation.
like when couples fight you know what each other truly feel.
when close friends fight you are saving your love for each other...
when people you dont know fight... nothing matters because there is nothing to save... nothing of worth... nothing worth fighting for... pride? respect? by little tests of trying to get to someone? by doing foolish things of blaming where one has not done wrong or when someone flips your things over to make your life harder?
I have no time to give to such strangers i dont know... im not really curious about such people either... there decision to do such antics would only slow me down. Theres enough real problems in the world anyways, and enough things to do to not get bored... things like this... is just useless to give the time too...
these people... these strangers... there acts of conflict are given as a share of their values... some people feel and value that conflict is ones strength because when someone is confronted they give off a feeling of a rush with the adrenaline, unless there is nothing that hadnt already been expected of such people. Which in turn would cause those people to evaluate how the person reacted to the situation.
With impressionless look and an ask to repair thier own damage only a feeling of emptiness can be given to those who had caused misfortune to the person. No satisfaction or feeling, just a lingering of death because of the emotionless question of putting things back as once they were...
making the individual either confused or believe a totally negative belief that they think you follow... they may either be freaked out and not do it again... they might hate because they know they had done something wrong, or they maybe so confused that they need to see the answer... the face... the body language a second time to really feel secure of what they saw with thier eyes was truly before them...
like when couples fight you know what each other truly feel.
when close friends fight you are saving your love for each other...
when people you dont know fight... nothing matters because there is nothing to save... nothing of worth... nothing worth fighting for... pride? respect? by little tests of trying to get to someone? by doing foolish things of blaming where one has not done wrong or when someone flips your things over to make your life harder?
I have no time to give to such strangers i dont know... im not really curious about such people either... there decision to do such antics would only slow me down. Theres enough real problems in the world anyways, and enough things to do to not get bored... things like this... is just useless to give the time too...
these people... these strangers... there acts of conflict are given as a share of their values... some people feel and value that conflict is ones strength because when someone is confronted they give off a feeling of a rush with the adrenaline, unless there is nothing that hadnt already been expected of such people. Which in turn would cause those people to evaluate how the person reacted to the situation.
With impressionless look and an ask to repair thier own damage only a feeling of emptiness can be given to those who had caused misfortune to the person. No satisfaction or feeling, just a lingering of death because of the emotionless question of putting things back as once they were...
making the individual either confused or believe a totally negative belief that they think you follow... they may either be freaked out and not do it again... they might hate because they know they had done something wrong, or they maybe so confused that they need to see the answer... the face... the body language a second time to really feel secure of what they saw with thier eyes was truly before them...
Is being Otaku bad?
[B]Otaku Stereotype[/B]
The stereotype of an Otaku is a fat man with wide glasses who stays inside their room taping shows, commercials, and has a great interest in hentai. Usually male and has capsule kits and manga filled to the ceiling. They are also known to use both the TV and the Computer at the same time while trying to put together small model kits they bought of a zoid, gundam, or car.
However this is only a small group of people in the Otaku subculture who let them selves be lost in the media without recognizing any other parts of life.
[B]Personal Definition[/B]
I think that the second you gone and seen something other then Naruto or Bleach you have become a Otaku... Otaku are not the same as extremists because over the time the original stereotype is becoming way to targeted towards those who are interested in hentai. Whats the different stages of obsession? lets think about it
[B] 1. If you have seen more then just Naruto or Bleach you are an Otaku.[/B]
[B]2. If you Cosplay...[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point
[B]3. If you own Model Kits, Capsule Toys, or Keychains...[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point for each one of the 3
[B]4. If you own CCGs, Postcards, or Pencil Boards[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point for each one of the 3
[B]5. If you own wallscrolls, posters, or anime wallpaper[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point for each one of the 3
[B]6. If you listen to anime music and nothing else[/B]
your just narrow minded... and lost in your anime
[B]7. If you use anime terms in every day conversation and start acting like them[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point
[B]8. If you can do the Lucky Star or Haruhi Dance...[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point
[B]9. If you seen even really bad anime even being forewarned...[/B]
you gain 3 OCD points
[B]10. If you goto work or school dressed up as a anime character...[/B]
you gain 3 OCD points
[B]11. If you know more then 12 anime quotes[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point
[B]12. if you are apart of an Anime or Manga forum[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point
[B]13. if you attend your local Anime Convention, School club, or Weekend Anime Meetings[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point for each of the 3
14. If you write fanfics, draw fanart, or make remixes of anime songs...
you gain 1 OCD point for each of the 3
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
honestly i see nothing wrong with being an otaku, I think that how Obsessive Compulsive you are about your hobby is more of the thing to fear really. Even if you are all these things no one should JUDGE you... its just if only these things run your life people are going to think... because it would be sad if all this is in your hobby but you are jobless and not attending school... but some people manage : / i know a few people who follow nearly all these and still have a life. It just gets harder to manage the farth you are in ANY hobby really ^_^U...
my personal score was 11 out of 26 OCD points :O
The stereotype of an Otaku is a fat man with wide glasses who stays inside their room taping shows, commercials, and has a great interest in hentai. Usually male and has capsule kits and manga filled to the ceiling. They are also known to use both the TV and the Computer at the same time while trying to put together small model kits they bought of a zoid, gundam, or car.
However this is only a small group of people in the Otaku subculture who let them selves be lost in the media without recognizing any other parts of life.
[B]Personal Definition[/B]
I think that the second you gone and seen something other then Naruto or Bleach you have become a Otaku... Otaku are not the same as extremists because over the time the original stereotype is becoming way to targeted towards those who are interested in hentai. Whats the different stages of obsession? lets think about it
[B] 1. If you have seen more then just Naruto or Bleach you are an Otaku.[/B]
[B]2. If you Cosplay...[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point
[B]3. If you own Model Kits, Capsule Toys, or Keychains...[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point for each one of the 3
[B]4. If you own CCGs, Postcards, or Pencil Boards[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point for each one of the 3
[B]5. If you own wallscrolls, posters, or anime wallpaper[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point for each one of the 3
[B]6. If you listen to anime music and nothing else[/B]
your just narrow minded... and lost in your anime
[B]7. If you use anime terms in every day conversation and start acting like them[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point
[B]8. If you can do the Lucky Star or Haruhi Dance...[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point
[B]9. If you seen even really bad anime even being forewarned...[/B]
you gain 3 OCD points
[B]10. If you goto work or school dressed up as a anime character...[/B]
you gain 3 OCD points
[B]11. If you know more then 12 anime quotes[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point
[B]12. if you are apart of an Anime or Manga forum[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point
[B]13. if you attend your local Anime Convention, School club, or Weekend Anime Meetings[/B]
you gain 1 OCD point for each of the 3
14. If you write fanfics, draw fanart, or make remixes of anime songs...
you gain 1 OCD point for each of the 3
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
honestly i see nothing wrong with being an otaku, I think that how Obsessive Compulsive you are about your hobby is more of the thing to fear really. Even if you are all these things no one should JUDGE you... its just if only these things run your life people are going to think... because it would be sad if all this is in your hobby but you are jobless and not attending school... but some people manage : / i know a few people who follow nearly all these and still have a life. It just gets harder to manage the farth you are in ANY hobby really ^_^U...
my personal score was 11 out of 26 OCD points :O
Thursday, April 17, 2008
So Much Nothing
Alot of people always tell me there is so much more on the mainland except those who have actually lived in the mainland... I have become so bored of how little things there is to do here, it makes me wonder how people cant eventually think of making entertainment better.
Wheres the scanner? thats what has been in my mind for the past day! I need a scanner T_T, but even if i had one here in California I wouldnt beable to make much use of it because of my labtop here sucks alot. I need to eventually start coloring things at my home desktop T_T... i miss my 20 inch widescreen!
trapped where no one likes what i like T_T... everyone thinks all my ochestrated tunes are weird as well as my normal songs :( they all gotta respect peoples differences in musical tastes. This blog is pretty much rambling... i just want to come home T_T
Wheres the scanner? thats what has been in my mind for the past day! I need a scanner T_T, but even if i had one here in California I wouldnt beable to make much use of it because of my labtop here sucks alot. I need to eventually start coloring things at my home desktop T_T... i miss my 20 inch widescreen!
trapped where no one likes what i like T_T... everyone thinks all my ochestrated tunes are weird as well as my normal songs :( they all gotta respect peoples differences in musical tastes. This blog is pretty much rambling... i just want to come home T_T
Monday, April 14, 2008
Talking Shit is Stupid
One of my biggest pet peeves is grown men and women... more men... that go and fuckin have nothing better to do then bitch and complain about how everyone else decides to do their lives. I say only complain if your going to do something about it, otherwise you should just shut the fuck up.
Nothing to do with your time?
alot of people end up going into a routine and then bitch and complain about where their at, but their reason for being bored out of their fuckin mind is because they arent doing shit with their lives... I think this is the first reason why people go to the topic of talking shit...
Values by Different Location?
Alot of people have no idea that each person has different beliefs based on if their from different sections of the US... It just so happens alot of my values are asian cause I live hawaii, but people should fucken respect others differences, otherwise they should best just not say anything.
Nothing to do with your time?
alot of people end up going into a routine and then bitch and complain about where their at, but their reason for being bored out of their fuckin mind is because they arent doing shit with their lives... I think this is the first reason why people go to the topic of talking shit...
Values by Different Location?
Alot of people have no idea that each person has different beliefs based on if their from different sections of the US... It just so happens alot of my values are asian cause I live hawaii, but people should fucken respect others differences, otherwise they should best just not say anything.
Friday, April 11, 2008
My Simple Little Life
Ranting:
1.Were All Here on this money driven planet...
what people do to get this money is with serving as many people as possible and turning a profit. The things that make the most money are things that are needs and the things which are wants aren't bought as often. Logical right? but most of the time serving a service or product for the purpose of just that isnt what feuled them. It is the money... which we all need to survive.
2.We need Leaders to tell us what were SUPPOSE to do... pshhtt
I think its annoying how people each have their beliefs decided for them by someone else or from a media device and not to sit down and just think about the 5 w's who what where why and when...
3.When people try to help others they are often seen as jerks because people dont have a good enough identification of personalities to understand the person means well : /...
Questions:
1. with hawaii being an island of paradise... do you really think cars should be more important over a transit system? i mean the metro is in the making... but it will take like 30 years? why is it not a priority? i have been reading about all the other things about hawaii, but I see traffic and gas to be one of our biggest problems.
What am I going to bother doing about this? well lets see I dont really have any political voice, but I just wish more people would take into considering that the metro should be a biggere priority than it has been....
2. The School Systems
i am seriously pissed off that we have to spend loads of cash to get regular education in our state : / I personally think the state should try and make one hawaii school website which has concentrated efforts for a hitech learning environment online. Then they can try to upgrade the old buildings to look artsy and make use of our hawaii-ish architecture design.
3.Where Hawaii should go?
simply were on an island. I think that the island should be the most hi-tech place in the world because we do not have any possible way to get our money except from bigger places like other countries and the mainland as a whole. Hawaii's Tourism industry is one of the only things that really bring money to our islands... I think if we spent more time concentrating on the Arts, Computer Science, and Online business that we would have alot more oppurtunity to make our state have some money...
A Impossible Plan?
right now things havent been so well in california, but i plan to try and be back home as soon as I can. I think the target date is in 3-4 weeks if i can.
The impossible plan comes when I go home...
There are things I want to do for the state, things I want to do for my hobbies, and things I want to do for my niche communities... its so large to think of the things I am trying to tackle, so I have to slowly list our a plan. Those who do not plan... plan to fail...
Sensei Penguin:
I need to first spend the time to try and talk to teachers about the k-8 lessons which they have and try to figure out a website which can help Hawaiis Education community which is all public and private schools and try to make it that theres a way people can accesss information to become better faculty and administration... I think alot of people in the Hawaii Education community start to lose focus on why they even went there or if they even like it?
Someone once told me that people go to be teachers because they cant be anything else... its kind of sad, but true... how can someone make education not torcherous? somehow discovery channel does so i am sure there is a way. They just need to use technology and art to the curriculum... i would much rather have a problem of people wanting to stay in school then many who do not value it...
But back to the main topic which is the Website Sensei Penguin... the website should contain different beliefs and point of views of different teachers around our state. It should show any awards that they have achieved and have a rating system for people who take the time to see if their teaching methods work and if logically it makes sense...
I think Sensei Penguin should also say the importance of each part in the large scale of how things run and how it is full of opportunity and fun.. I think alot of people lose the fun aspect especially in their jobs because they arent doing what they wanted to... a bigger thing is that I think they stop thinking of ways to make their job different or better. When people are stuck in routine it is easy but very boring... if people want to work less harder they should have some way to allow themselves to, like if they work for so many hours and feel like not there should be a system for it, which i almost guarentee there is no such system... The importance of a position I feel keeps the person having pride in their job...
Helping Transportation:
I think one of the things I will do in my free time is try to get information about helping the transportation systems of hawaii in the design area. Hopefully they already have a clear idea of how to make it work visually and I wont have to do anything and just nod to myself and agree that they are making it visually fun and easy to use but somehow I feel that is NOT going to happen.
Im probably going to try and ask some people online who know interior design or find local people who are fellow artists to help design the inside of a fake train... then im going to try and make a 3d model of a train and insides of the train and do my best to make a 3d hawaii... it would be of course totally fake, but I think it is a step in the right direction for hawaiis growth.
What do I expect from this? hopefully to raise awareness of the importance of the rail system and show there is a way that it can happen sooner. Is it really possible for it to happen sooner? im not sure but i doubt anyone cared enough to take a look and see what possibility there is!
Social Community of the Dorks
this part of the plan seems to be just as challenging as the others because I have to figure out how to make dorkism socially acceptable and show the differance between being a hobbyist someone who just doesnt mind participating and someone who is a Extremist in what they do with their dork hobbys...
there are many kinds of dorks... anime dorks, board game dorks, book dorks, comic dorks, RPG dorks, video game dorks, MMORPG dorks, and creative dorks...
I feel that alot of dorks end up becomming extremists in their hobby because of the games design. There are hundreds of rules and things to read in the text books. Making the learning curve nearly impossible. Those who stick around are nuts about the story which gives them a sesnes of escapism.
Awareness of a Game is only a Game, Awareness that Games are Social activities and not EGO stretchers... Game designs must have the simple 3 ingredients of luck, customization, and control aka game skill. Clothes lines must be made for dorks as well as supplies which allow the people to have a sense of individualism... This will add all kinds of new possibilities to the types of people who are attracted to games... if there are all these different parts to making this subculture I believe it will end up being more socially acceptable... even if I only raise awareness about Games being social activities...
To do this I will need to maybe take a trip to maui to my aunties house with at least 1000$ in my account to buy things to learn sewing... that way I can make quality products for Dice Bags, Counter Bags, and Messenger bags as well as tops and bottoms. Then I can see if people would pay for custom versions of these and then make them on the side while I work at home. If it gets big enough I would need to figure out a way which these items could be mass produced.
I would then need to design at least 12 games which are very fun and easy to get into... with my winning 3 ingredients.
I would also need to take time to figure out about Event making and create a event which will be interesting to both the general community as well as the hobbyists which will be called AiAnchor Animation Festival, which is known as A3F. It should be small at first so there isnt much money lost... It will primarily help the Japanese Media awareness and probably help several subcommunities.
The Martial Arts sub community, The Local Japanese Sub community and Japanese cultural Center supporters, The Otaku subculture community, the Board and Card game communities, and the Import book stores who have products of japan. I think I might somehow try to figure out a way to get the blood drive over on one of the days to get more public awarenesss since alot of small cons seem to do that.
this all sound impossible, but I will do everything I can possible to achieving these Dreams... they are my life...
1.Were All Here on this money driven planet...
what people do to get this money is with serving as many people as possible and turning a profit. The things that make the most money are things that are needs and the things which are wants aren't bought as often. Logical right? but most of the time serving a service or product for the purpose of just that isnt what feuled them. It is the money... which we all need to survive.
2.We need Leaders to tell us what were SUPPOSE to do... pshhtt
I think its annoying how people each have their beliefs decided for them by someone else or from a media device and not to sit down and just think about the 5 w's who what where why and when...
3.When people try to help others they are often seen as jerks because people dont have a good enough identification of personalities to understand the person means well : /...
Questions:
1. with hawaii being an island of paradise... do you really think cars should be more important over a transit system? i mean the metro is in the making... but it will take like 30 years? why is it not a priority? i have been reading about all the other things about hawaii, but I see traffic and gas to be one of our biggest problems.
What am I going to bother doing about this? well lets see I dont really have any political voice, but I just wish more people would take into considering that the metro should be a biggere priority than it has been....
2. The School Systems
i am seriously pissed off that we have to spend loads of cash to get regular education in our state : / I personally think the state should try and make one hawaii school website which has concentrated efforts for a hitech learning environment online. Then they can try to upgrade the old buildings to look artsy and make use of our hawaii-ish architecture design.
3.Where Hawaii should go?
simply were on an island. I think that the island should be the most hi-tech place in the world because we do not have any possible way to get our money except from bigger places like other countries and the mainland as a whole. Hawaii's Tourism industry is one of the only things that really bring money to our islands... I think if we spent more time concentrating on the Arts, Computer Science, and Online business that we would have alot more oppurtunity to make our state have some money...
A Impossible Plan?
right now things havent been so well in california, but i plan to try and be back home as soon as I can. I think the target date is in 3-4 weeks if i can.
The impossible plan comes when I go home...
There are things I want to do for the state, things I want to do for my hobbies, and things I want to do for my niche communities... its so large to think of the things I am trying to tackle, so I have to slowly list our a plan. Those who do not plan... plan to fail...
Sensei Penguin:
I need to first spend the time to try and talk to teachers about the k-8 lessons which they have and try to figure out a website which can help Hawaiis Education community which is all public and private schools and try to make it that theres a way people can accesss information to become better faculty and administration... I think alot of people in the Hawaii Education community start to lose focus on why they even went there or if they even like it?
Someone once told me that people go to be teachers because they cant be anything else... its kind of sad, but true... how can someone make education not torcherous? somehow discovery channel does so i am sure there is a way. They just need to use technology and art to the curriculum... i would much rather have a problem of people wanting to stay in school then many who do not value it...
But back to the main topic which is the Website Sensei Penguin... the website should contain different beliefs and point of views of different teachers around our state. It should show any awards that they have achieved and have a rating system for people who take the time to see if their teaching methods work and if logically it makes sense...
I think Sensei Penguin should also say the importance of each part in the large scale of how things run and how it is full of opportunity and fun.. I think alot of people lose the fun aspect especially in their jobs because they arent doing what they wanted to... a bigger thing is that I think they stop thinking of ways to make their job different or better. When people are stuck in routine it is easy but very boring... if people want to work less harder they should have some way to allow themselves to, like if they work for so many hours and feel like not there should be a system for it, which i almost guarentee there is no such system... The importance of a position I feel keeps the person having pride in their job...
Helping Transportation:
I think one of the things I will do in my free time is try to get information about helping the transportation systems of hawaii in the design area. Hopefully they already have a clear idea of how to make it work visually and I wont have to do anything and just nod to myself and agree that they are making it visually fun and easy to use but somehow I feel that is NOT going to happen.
Im probably going to try and ask some people online who know interior design or find local people who are fellow artists to help design the inside of a fake train... then im going to try and make a 3d model of a train and insides of the train and do my best to make a 3d hawaii... it would be of course totally fake, but I think it is a step in the right direction for hawaiis growth.
What do I expect from this? hopefully to raise awareness of the importance of the rail system and show there is a way that it can happen sooner. Is it really possible for it to happen sooner? im not sure but i doubt anyone cared enough to take a look and see what possibility there is!
Social Community of the Dorks
this part of the plan seems to be just as challenging as the others because I have to figure out how to make dorkism socially acceptable and show the differance between being a hobbyist someone who just doesnt mind participating and someone who is a Extremist in what they do with their dork hobbys...
there are many kinds of dorks... anime dorks, board game dorks, book dorks, comic dorks, RPG dorks, video game dorks, MMORPG dorks, and creative dorks...
I feel that alot of dorks end up becomming extremists in their hobby because of the games design. There are hundreds of rules and things to read in the text books. Making the learning curve nearly impossible. Those who stick around are nuts about the story which gives them a sesnes of escapism.
Awareness of a Game is only a Game, Awareness that Games are Social activities and not EGO stretchers... Game designs must have the simple 3 ingredients of luck, customization, and control aka game skill. Clothes lines must be made for dorks as well as supplies which allow the people to have a sense of individualism... This will add all kinds of new possibilities to the types of people who are attracted to games... if there are all these different parts to making this subculture I believe it will end up being more socially acceptable... even if I only raise awareness about Games being social activities...
To do this I will need to maybe take a trip to maui to my aunties house with at least 1000$ in my account to buy things to learn sewing... that way I can make quality products for Dice Bags, Counter Bags, and Messenger bags as well as tops and bottoms. Then I can see if people would pay for custom versions of these and then make them on the side while I work at home. If it gets big enough I would need to figure out a way which these items could be mass produced.
I would then need to design at least 12 games which are very fun and easy to get into... with my winning 3 ingredients.
I would also need to take time to figure out about Event making and create a event which will be interesting to both the general community as well as the hobbyists which will be called AiAnchor Animation Festival, which is known as A3F. It should be small at first so there isnt much money lost... It will primarily help the Japanese Media awareness and probably help several subcommunities.
The Martial Arts sub community, The Local Japanese Sub community and Japanese cultural Center supporters, The Otaku subculture community, the Board and Card game communities, and the Import book stores who have products of japan. I think I might somehow try to figure out a way to get the blood drive over on one of the days to get more public awarenesss since alot of small cons seem to do that.
this all sound impossible, but I will do everything I can possible to achieving these Dreams... they are my life...
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